Negative Lane

I haven’t been myself all year
too many changes around here
and the road to happiness has been a crash course
it’s been a long year
since you left
and a whole week since I last slept
dusting myself off to ride the wild horse

Don’t know where I’m going
or just what it means
but the scars remind me of exactly where I’ve been

If you try to find me
my number’s not the same
hang my hat up on negative lane

People keep asking how I’ve been
because of the state of mind I’m in
there’s a million places I swore I would be by now

radio songs all sound the same
I almost played in to that whole game
but the boy’s club hung a sign that said “no girls allowed”

Don’t know where I’m going
or just what it means
but the scars remind me of exactly where I’ve been

If you try to find me my number’s not the same
hang my hat up on negative lane
you take the road of self destruction
to the culdesac of shame
hang my hat up on negative lane

I keep on coming around
I got one foot back on the ground
and when the other joins me I’ll be splitting town

– Antigone Rising, “Negative Lane,” New And Used (1999)